Amateur

Here the story goes.

Last Saturday, Jan 28th, I joined eumm...a kind of...photography training with Darwis Triadi.

Actually I had had lost my interest in photography-stuff since yearssss ago (yes, it got me trapped once, when I was in my sophomore year). But I happened to be invited to this training so yea, I said 'yes' anyway.

These are some photos taken by me. No wonder they no good, I've told you from the first place that I'm such an amateur, right? (see the title above -_-)

Noted.

When two people happen to fall in love one another, then they're making a commitment to bound themselves in a relationship, does it mean there's a guarantee their love story goes happily ever after?

We, all of us, have seen so many things don't work out the way it should. Things go way beyond expectation, and can't be helped. Things stray too far from its track.
Problems. Lies. Betrayals. Untrustworthy. Jealousy. Cheats. Fights. Or anything else in common. Those are roots of breakups.
Or maybe the main root is as simply as what we call boredom. It might ruin love. Ruin everything that has been built for a long time. It might strecth out the bound that has been bonding tightly.
Yea boredom leads love astray.

Have you ever questioned why two people who used to love one each other end up in anger?

Maybe they forget how their heart skipped a beat everytime s/he came across the room. Maybe they forget how they used to smile like a crazy when they got a single hi from him/her. Maybe they forget how the butterflies filled their tummy whenever they saw him/her smiling. Maybe they forget how a goodnight text drove them head over heels. Maybe they forget how they were dying wanted to talk to him/her yet having lack of courage. Maybe they forget how it took their breath away just to say "I love you".
And maybe they forget how they wanted to scream out loud telling the world they just heard an "I love you too".

It's sad to get hurt by your loved one. But it's worse to live without the one you love.
But do you know what's worst? Keep holding on to one you should leggo.

Let go.
Let go shows them you're strong enough to live without them.
Yet, don't look back in anger. They're not your mistake, no.
Regard them as your past to learn. Thank them as ones who made you a better, stronger person.

After let go, just remember to keep moving forward.
What's left, supposed to be left.
Nobody say it's easy. It's hard to move on. Yes it's so damn true. But remember, it's harder to be the one who's left behind.

There are 6,930,055,154 people in this world. Why are you letting just one ruin your life?

Be good to yourself cause you're surely gonna spend your live span with yourself. By that, save yourself. By letting go sadness and pain. Stop holding on to what hurts and make room for what feels good. Leave those who are not worth the prize of getting hurt over and over again. Stay strong, keep moving forward.

HelloGoodbye

I just changed my twitter bio into.... "I'm the deer who lives between your hello and goodbye."

I thought it really is.

But hey, whom ever said goodbye then walked away and never came back?

Nobody.

No one ever find their way go from me (or should I use "my life" instead of "me"? It pretty much sounds cocky. Whatever.). They might go as far as they want. Yet, the path they're walking in leads them back to me, with or without them realize.

Have you ever said goodbye, and it works?

Works here I mean... you really go, successfully forget everything about them. Every single thing.

I bet nobody have.

Goodbye is utterly not a spell that makes you magically disappear from someone's life.

Neither death.

No I'm not joking around. True, when death comes to someone, they no longer be a part of your life. Physically.

But memory keeps them forever.

Memory about them lives forever in your heart. So let's say, they're not literally gone from your life, right?

You might miss them at the moment, you might miss their presence. At the end, you can only thank them for the memories they have given to you, promise them not to get amnesia and let those memories slip away. By that, you're keeping 'em alive. Deep inside your heart.

A single hello means a world to anybody who says it. It's like the door which welcomes you in.

And by the way, it is a one-way door.

Yes, there's no way out for sure.

A hello leads you to know them more. And getting know someone is like getting caught in a trap.

No matter how hard you try to get out, you stuck anyway.

That's why we'd better be good to people. Simply because we might as well live in people's life, and not gonna get away from there either. Being appraised as a good one is nice, right? :)

Briefly, you can not walk away from someone's life. You're there and will forever be there; no matter what, with or without your wish. Goodbye doesn't count. The truth is likely like... once you say hi, surely there will be no goodbye.

The Beginning of The New Chapter

Hello.

Have you made your 2012 resolution, 2012 wish list, or something in common?

As long as I live, I never made this kind of thing. I never decided how far would I go by the beginning of the year. I even never had any thought of it.

Maybe that's simply because I'm not an organized person. Yes, I never keep my life organized. I don't set any goals, I don't make a list of what-to-do, and I don't even make a note of my homeworkssss. K, I gotta admit that I always tried, yes, always. I bought a block note, telling myself 'write your to-do-list here' 'note your homework here', but as always, things did work only on the first week, and that block note ended up being bloody useless. Don't blame me. I've tried, people. I've tried. Sigh..

The worst of all...... I can barely manage my time. Too much saying "yes", I bet. Time wasted, energy went along, yet nothing I got.

Well, resolution. I need resolution.

I turned 18 a couple months ago. So lemme say, I'm not a kid anymore. I should decide where Imma go, what Imma be, by.....starting organizing life, just to make sure I can keep things on track. So, in this first page of new chapter, I will make a resolution. And the rest 365pages will be filled by the struggles I afforded to complete this mission impossible.

Hufffff. I got a big question now;

Can I make it?

The answer lies a year ahead. Ew, it's likely like a challenge for me. Yeay. *does it sound like I'm mettlesome? Uh honestly I'm not*

2012 Resolution

- Explore yourself.

- Lessen procrastinating. DO IT NOW!

- Eating more vegetables and fruits. P.S: You gotta love 'em, Miss. *brb vomit*

- Do not skip breakfast. No ulcer no cry.

- Read the Qur'an, and do sholat sunnah.

- Say a big NO to your lazybones.

- IP UP! Amen.

- Bicycling to campus.

- Be fuckin' creative!

- Learn to manage time.

- READ MORE!

- WRITE MORE!

- Say yes to opportunities, but don't forget to make use of the word 'no'.

- Be consistent.

- Take the risk.

- Be brave, be confident.

- Put away your negative thoughts, replace with positive ones.

- Don't forget life is not all about black&blue. If it seems so, put some color in it :-)

- Pqriehqrjbasmbnaskdjadafbkehfkakfnkeh *I can't tell you here :-p*

- The most important, choose to be happy!

Well, good luck, me! :-D