Not A Bad Thing

I guess God is good. I believe God has a bigger, better plan for anyone, each of every living thing, than what we  have made for ourselves.
I failed in working on my plan. But here I learn to get up and smile again. I'm not the one who's been here, and when I see them get stronger I know I have to be one. Hard time is something that I must deal with, but with the people around me right now, I know it can't be that hard.
I need to get ready for another plan. Maybe not sometime soon. But for whenever it will be, it's important for me to keep on telling myself that I, just like everyone else, deserve to be happy too.

The Art of Letting Go

Now playing: Supersymmetry - Arcade Fire

This writing is a reminder that life can't always seem good all the time.
Things I've been holding on tightly for so long... I never thought I would lose my grip on it, but now I eventually watching it goes away. But do you know that feeling when you are loosing a grip? Exactly. You feel that kind of relief. That the strain can finally be released. Then you feel the lighter burden.

Deep down inside I quite much understand how sooner or later regrets will come over me. That "why didn't you try a little harder" or whatever you name it... I know they will haunt me someday. But for whatever it will become...for now, I'd like to let myself feel all the feelings that demand to be felt. The freedom, and emptiness. Excitement, and disappointment. Gain, and pain. Relief, and grief.

I hope this sum up of everything that happened to me lately brings me up to the next level.

Do I Even Need to Give It A Name?

I have that kind of tendency to like a song if I can sing it along. Knowing the lyrics, knowing what it is about. Moreover, if it has something related with me. Most of all, it goes this way. But sometimes, I'd prefer listen to a completely strange mixtape which I can only listen to its music, enjoying every sound without bothering myself with the idea of understanding what it actually means.
The same thing goes with people. People whom I know personally, who has something in common with me... I'd prefer being surrounded by these people, most of the time. But sometimes, there comes a time when I just wanna be a stranger to strangers. Another human beings whom I don't need to know who, whom I don't need to understand why. To have a guarantee that this is a kind of 'one night stand'. To know that there will be no judgement for whatever happens, for at least the judgement has no impact. To be reassured that they don't come to stop by, because they're people who's passing by.

This will be a very quick post

I find out that life is just as hard as we think it is. I am very thankful for whatever I already have in my life, and always doing the best of what I can do to have some more. But I forget that sometimes I have to look back to the day when I had less; how I could survive and still be happy as well.

This is not just a part of a college life. Not just an escaping idea. This is a journey. Another way to learn and grow. A reminder that life is great, and I gotta always be thankful for the life that God has given to me. A space to figure out how strong the bounds I've made with the people I love. A way to notice how distance is just a word when two hearts are still beating for one another.

Pesanggrahan, Lombok Timur

July 27th, 2014

Bold

 I really appreciate people who can sincerely write what comes into their mind into a beautiful writing and have the guts to share it, whatever it is about. With no shame and no doubt. Just being honest. I believe their souls are prettier than their writings.
Just like how I adore those people who like something and dare enough to (oh I really wish I could find a better substitution word to make it sounds more polite) show it off.
Sometimes I don't get it, why some people are cynically bitching about other people who's showing/sharing what they like, what they love, their hobbies, their passions. This world needs more passionate people who are willing to be bold. Brave enough to show who they really are, and proud of it. 

Half of the world's population may envy Sam Shakusky and Suzy Bishop; for they are so bold in such a young age. Fearlessly facing any kind of obstacles for the sake of expressing who they are and what they want while most of us, can not.